Kontot

hospital follow up-bf driving test-bf blood test-movie at pavilion-check out upu appeal result.

saya perlu ceria! saya perlu happy! mood saya baik! saya x lembik! yey!

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Berdegup-degup

and it happend yesterday..

skrin tv jenama Panasonic:

keputusan rayuan kemasukan pengajian tinggi sesi..........boleh dilihat bermula Isnin, 14 haribulan 2008............

expressi si pharie :

wosh! btol ke ni? inform yg lainlah.

orang-orang kementerian nih..main tuka2 plak tarikh. saya baru semangat-semangat dah nak datang universiti sendiri semalam.ngep.

CU-WAK WOI!!

and it happend this evening...

she said:

"i need some time to think about this until im ready enuf..bla..bla..we can have some space..bla...bla..but not now,...when everything is settled...bla..bla..bla.."

"u act like you dont even know me..bla..bla..can call...bla..blaa..if you need me..bla..bla..."

._____________________________________.

pharie said:

"ok fine.eda pon pk camtuh gak.if you think thats the best way for you...bla..blaa..if you feel selesa this solution...bla..bla..im fine with that."

shit.i lied.all because i want what is best for her, i hurt myself.again.
its hard you know to be a very good sister.you need sacrifces.

dammit.

babi.mmg cam babi. =/

p/s: farah syahidah wakes up at 6.27 am today.awal bukan?

Tak Tahan

I need to do something about this.I felt i cant wait till the appeal result which will be out on 31 of Julai.I feel like i did not work hard enough.I really cant stand here all alone at home doing nothing, waiting and wondering while all my friends already started their study for their future sake.Ive made my mind that i want to go to the university itself along with my cerificates and appeal letter written by my own with good and strong reasons why they should except me as their student and decide want to give it to the administration all by myself.If i must meet the dean and the councelor itself to make it happen i really dont have any problem at all.Its not like i did not get excellent result during my STPM exam. I dont mind going from door to other door and face all the burden ahead of me after this.Im well prepared untill im satisfy that i had done my very best to make it work.

I guess i must bring someone to accompany me.I will try ask my father or my bf.Well see about that.

why i suddenly think of this? C's Aisyah! i was inspired by you!! hehe.thankz for the advise sis!

huurm.what else eih? yeyeh! Monday jumpe bf. i can still remember his words says to me when i cry agak terukla in front of him.ye.He is the most lucky guy sbb dapat tonton saya menangis meleleh air mata sampai ke leher non-stop.seriusly im not the type yang mudah menangis in front of people.cerita benar nie.owh,jgn silap ye.bukan menangis SEBAB a guy but menangis DEPAN a guy.nampak perbezaan disini? he said..

" pharie..i yang heartbroken dengar cerita you ni..."

haha.cute btol.neway, lameeee dah x jumpe die.haha.padahal baru 3 hari.


eeeee.gatal.



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Corrections

ingat x my previous post pasal a disatisfaction letter to our daily newspapers from a rakyat named Shafiq Ramlan??



so.sini ade satuh pembetulan skit.baru dapat tahu tadi yg its not him yang wrote the letter.it was his father.huhu.


sorry 4 the wrong info bloggers.tetapi, nak tekankan kat sini, tak kisahlah shafiq ke ayah shafiq ke yg tulis.They both still called as a rakyat.

heh.


agaain..sorry guys.



lari dulu!

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suddenly i can smell that my blog nie sudah berbaur politik plak.sudah.sudah.berhenti menulis farah syahidah.

Politiklah plak

most citizens said that BN wasting lots of rakyat money.

in certain situations yes i do agree.Example all the carnivals and feast the goverment organized just for fun such as Malam itulah, pesta airlah, Konsert sana sini.Truelly wasting of rakyat money.Kerajaan habis duit rakyat buat mende2 ini semua and rakyat pon habiskan duit mereka for the tickets too.itu pon salah satu cara pembaziran duit rakyat.

yet.i also think PR did the same thing too..

i took an illegal rally as one example.i went to a rally in Kelana Jaya Stadium recently organized by them.pihak pembangkang sanggup habiskan duit for a rally hoping that the goverment hear their voice.mereka tempah membuat t-shirts berpuluh ribu banyaknya utk dijual for a rally.buang duit juga tu.itu belom masuk bandages, tags, stickers, flags, or even big huge posters and banners.x ke keluar juga duit rakyat? and rakyat dtg pon belilah bende2 dijual tuh.kan ke elok guna duit tu buat beli barang utk kebajikan keluarga.furthermore, tmpat rally xkan free kot en? hurm mungkin ye.owh and and zaman sekarang punya rally canggih.ade tetamu jemputan plak utk mendapat perspektif 'aman' among the rakyat and the rulers.the tetamu jemputan such singers, bands, performances, x kan free kot? i bet they all been paid by them.if they willingly pon i think the pembangkang still shows their epreciations by giving a small amount of money.paling paling koman pon a present.x cerita lagi duit pengangkutan gi rally.ade yang datang dari Kelantan, Johor, Perak dengan bas, teksi, kereta, motor and other public transport.kan bazir duit minyak? they wasting rakyat money, and the rakyat pon wasting their money to sumthing yg dah tentu2 x memberi manfaat kepada mereka.did they realise that? you think a rally can change our goverment just like that? kalu dengan penjajah itu cerita lain.jgn bandingkan warganegara Malaysia dengan warganegara Indonesia. haha.


so...kalau dikumpul2 duit rakyat yg dah diguna itu from both parties saya raselah bukan takat bole beli satu peti sejuk penuh barang dapur for seorang rakyat or other kebajikan rakyat malah bole beli bertong-tong minyak utk kegunaan harian daripada organizing a rally bising2 suruh kerajaan turunkan harga minyak.macam nak menerap nilai2yg negatif like marah, dendam, memberontak, sakit hati dalam diri dan sesama manusia.yo, sape yg takbir goverment pon.manusia gak kan? bukan haiwan-haiwan kecil.cubalah bawak bersyukur skit.I think we are far waayy more better than other asian countries.if not xdernya berpuluh-puluh ribu warga asing masuk mesia utk tampung sara hidup diri and keluarga diorang.adelah hikmahnya disebalik kenaikan harga minyak tuh.Mayb its time for Malaysians to learn how to berjimat-cermat ke, or latih kita jadi sehat or enviromental friendly ke, like naik basikal or just walk instead of naik kereta if pegi mane2 yg berdekatan kan? or even its time for us blaja buat hasil pengeluaran sendri ke, like tanam sumber makanan sendiri kan? ni tak, organized an illegal rally.itu bukan penyelesaian to the problem.malah it worsen the problem.the result, negara kelihatan seperti tak aman, tak ade perpaduan dikalangan masyarakat dan masalah-masalah lain akan timbul, contoh paling keciklah en, ramai org awam x pasal2 masuk jail termasuklah mahasiswa mahasiswi.patuh bising2 plak sbb kene tahan polis or worst ISA.sape suruh gi rally? haha.

in the end dua-dua parties sama saja dua kali lima.


ok fine.saya pon pergi rally tu.duit saye habis separuh sbb itu ok.tp ini saje2 nak cerita pengalaman and my point of view as a rakyat yg dah gi rally and tension dgn keadaan kerajaan sekarang.asik nak gaduh je.heh


woot.woot.

eih, eih, rase bes plak bebel pasal politik nie.haha.stop it farah syahidah.x pasal2 kang kene belasah cam Alak dlm video Youtube in Malaysiakini tu.

XP

Gloomy Morning

How would you feel when you woke up early in the morning instead of hearing sunrise shines or even birds singing happily, you hear is your mother yelling at you non- stop. you feel unpleasant bukan?

huh.gosh..it happens to me this morning.adei...

it all started when i open my mother laptop and started surfing right after i woke up.today shes not working but she will be off to Langkawi for a kursus there in the afternoon.so she took off day today packing clothes and her other preparations.Oh, and she will going there by flight.anyway, back to the surfing..she went downstairs and saw me online.then suddenly...

mother :

"hah, itu kerja kamu sepanjang hari nie.bangun pagi dah mengadap komputer , tak ade kerja lain ke? org lain semua dah pergi belajar, tinggal kamu sorang kat rumah nie."

pharie :

".........................................................."

she continued..

mother :

"cuba kamu tgk kak long kamu tuh.dah sampai luar negara.sampai bila kamu nak camnih....cubalah belajar masak ke.umur dah nak masuk 21 tahun."

pharie:

*dlm hati* part compare2 nie yg aku benci nie............

mother:

"pergi mandi sekarang! karang mak cabut line internet tu baru kamu tahu! byk lagi mende berfaedah boleh buat dari kamu asik mengadap komputer tuh dari pagi sampai mlm!"

pharie:

"............................................"

adei....before this i can accept its my fault coz online 24/7 and not doing the housework except for washing clothes and plates in the kitchen and buzy with my work.Not only that, arrived home very late at night which sometimes can reach till 1-2 o'clock in the morning really can boost angry-ness to your parents.But now,i didnt do that anymore.I still dont understand why i get scolded eventhough ive done all the housework that includes wiping all the fans clean and clear enough.Moreover, i did all the housework by myself everyday.
Coz,i think is better stay at home rather than me wondering around everyday wastime time, money socializing for something not important.so..what did i do wrong?

Before this yes, i admit that im a very outgoing person.Almost everyday keluar rumah whole day and went home kindda late.Even my parents already advising me manymany times about this whole bad attidude i have which i know they were right and im a girl.haha.I dont like to elaborate this.You all should know better what message is im trying to send here.


huhu.neway cant blame her.she works as a school principal.....disiplin is important to her.

duuuh.....



mmg pagi yg xbaik.

nak blahlah.

babai.


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I Agree With You Shafiq Ramlan

read this dear fellas.sgt logik and mostly true.

Both sides have failed the rakyat

IT is plain as daylight that the ordinary citizens of Malaysia are crying and pleading for help and relief from its chosen Government representatives from the increasing cost of living.

But instead of help, we are bombarded daily in the media by the rhetoric of “people-centric” programmes of questionable effectiveness, MPs showing their immaturity and lack of culture and continual witch-hunting and finger-pointing between the BN and PR of bad governance and mismanagement.

The first 100 days therefore have been nothing short of disgrace in terms of the performance of the elected representatives to address the plight of the people.

Increasingly, there is a feeling of haplessness and despair. People do not know whom to turn to as both sides have failed miserably to address the issues of concern.............-copied from FALLEN LEAVES



there you go.what were you reading just now is half of a letter.heres my piece of mind after reading this letter.i agree with you shafiq ramlan.this is an informal letter i copied from one of my SViAN junior Shafiq Ramlan, after i read his blog.i assume he sends this letter to express his ketidakpuashatian to both parties that they need to stop pointing fingers to each other in one of our daily newspaper.A very good indeed example of rakyat like me yg sudah muak with what is happening to our country right now.Everyday they will be news about PR said BN is this and that blaaa..blaa..then, BN strikes back saying PR is blaa..bla..soo on so forth. Not just that, suddenly all the MPs, YBs, Judges, Polices, even private investigator turns out to be so outspoken and so brave when we hear all secrets of their wrong doings among both parties automaticly revealed one by one in all sorts of medias while the rakyat is watching and shouting helplessly to stop this non-sense like shafiq yet no one knows.this is what happens when they are greedy people who wanted to conquer the country but using this slogan ' nak tolong rakyat ' ' kita nak kurangkan beban rakyat ' instead.so whats the benefit of voting for them if they already failed when everthing just get started...

oh my, what were they call them? politicions....

tengok-tengok.our prime minister already voice out to steps downlah...........but within after two years.hoho.so then Najiblah will be promoted.if....he is still alive....-lah that time.
i guess this such politic drama series in Malaysia ni can become a best-seller list or even a box-office movielah en? haha.

well, shafiq im with you.buat lagi byk2 letter sampai you jadi femes.haha.


cheers!

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Wuyoo.

ive been wondering...sejak dua memenjak nilah en i always wakeup very early in the morning.today i woke up at 7.00am sharp.yesterday its was a record, 5.13am.the day before yesterday i woke up around 7 something.but that i cant put it in my record because i woke up after i got a call from my bf to be prepared for his medical check up.haha.anyways, this phenomenon happens too last week.to make it clear since im back from my vacations, waking up after 9.00am and above which it had been my habit sejak azali lagi quite impossible.wuyoo.wuyoo.im impressed with myself.well, at first i was like

"eee..pehal2 weh? pehal nie weh?"

"am i sick or sumthing?"

"woi.x boleh jadi nie."

it felt weird at first.then, day by day im kindda used to it.wuyoolah.haha.farah syahidah jakon sbb x penah bangun awal setiap hari except for schooldays.but, u see..waking up very early with me alone at home is more boring than before.so much time with less thing to do.nothing else but crunchingcrunchingcrunching
burb-ingburb-ingburb-ing.*menternak perut* huhu.

well,



















those yang bangun awal kan murah rezeki die......

haha.

goodday! i want to search rezeki in the kitchen.


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wasting time

here again.im alone at home.doing housework as usual.nasib baik esok nak keluar teman bf gunting rambut.asik2 nak gunting rambutlah die nie.pelik.taulah rambut die tuh aset plg hot.haha.alasan cam show off sbb nak tayang rambut baru kat his besttie wedding kat Pahang nanti.LOL.sukehati lah u lah.yesterday i was singing all the way in my room with my mp3 sampai habis bateri.miming sorang bajet singer hebat.heh.tp keadaan tetap boring.

Jadual oppointment my follow ups dah tuka.suppose to be yesterday, tptp atas sbb x tentu.i felt nak tuka to this Monday, 14th.yeyeh! Senanglah.besides, my bf kene amik his blood test this monday, plus his driving test.soo.plan2 nak gi Hospital same2, check same.trus pi tgk wayang same2 campur gak beli hadiah utk kak keadilan bak kate my bf.before this i plan to make it special this year followed by her present.tp, entahlah.langsung x jadi.never had time to buy her a bitrhday present yet.monday is a perfect day.nak beli ape pon x tatau.pk2 lagi.huhu.

today is raining from 7.00am untill now.nak keluar x boleh.nak sidai baju pon x boleh.sekarang midvalley sale.best2.jj x sale lagi.adoi.adoi.adoi.habislah duit saya.

dah.dah.farah syahidah.bloggers lain bace pon bole tido.dah versi Bahasa Melayu campur Inggeris.agaknya dah dengkur2 dah.


chao!

Emolah skit.

" Your heart is not living until it has experienced pain...
the pain of love breaks open the heart,
even if it is as hard as a rock "

so im rockin'

lalalaaa~

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mase meja

yesterday.

my foot steps on inside Midvalley with fellow ellyz and my cute conan and her always in her side bf, firdaus.then tru Pavilion dinner with my bf.went back together around 8.30pm


today.

my foot steps on inside Stadium Kelana Jaya for Protes Sejuta Rakyat organize by pembangkang.then to Pavilion for unplanned movies with bf.went home around 5pm















tomorrow.

to the Hospital Besar Kuala Lumpur at Pesakit Luar Department for his medical check ups there.

eee..he post this.

bloody bird,

Back in the early 1990s, when we first moved to this “bandar dermawan paksa” , as my cousin puts it, they were seven of us. Then one of my daughter went to boarding school. Not to loose the family spirit we make it a point to visit her every weekend. Then his brother went to another boarding school, then another one. And last year, the eldest one went to Canada for further studies and last week i sent another one to UiTM Melaka. Ironically, Atiqah is the only who never left for boarding school, who has been at home all this while, left us last week for UiTM Malacca. I think she is coping well despite the fact that she has never been away from us for more than a couple of days - on school camping or field trips. That leaves, Syahidah with the two of us. No doubt she was in boarding school for one semester but I had to pull her back because of her unwillingness to suffer further from the boarded life. And now she is all alone at home while we are at work. The house is awfully quiet now. Suddenly you realised that, the whole years has gone past and you are back to square one albeit older and not necessarily wiser though. My poor Syahidah is holding the fort now and I can identify her loneliness after Atiqah left last week. Despite my nonchalance appearance about the whole thing, my heart bleeds for her. She is the outgoing one, despite her health concerns, she is the chirpy ones. I can still remember the days when she was in and out hospital every other month. And she still is, even the nurses at the Paediatric Institute remember her name. God knows how she she has grown. She was the only one who started walking without going through crawling phase of her toddlers life, her medical condition did not permit her the luxury of crawling. She started walking only after she was almost two years old, give and take three months. Well, now she is well past her teens. Then, when one by one of her friends and siblings leave for further studies she was left wondering, why did she not get anywhere, anyplace. With so favourable STPM results she had to wait. In the meantime, I am resigned to the fact that, you got married, have kids, raised them, and then they start to leave you one by one and the whole cycle starts again. As of now, they used to be seven of us…

*copied from mata satu blogroll*

im touched.even he can even sense my lonelyness.

bless you ayah...

Empty

-its been 7 days im living like anak tunggal.and i really dont like it.i repeat.I DONT LIKE IT.u can turn into madness.u see, heres the problem.nak sambung jamming, they all already going futher study.nak sambung swimming, my lil sis dah x der nak teman gi umah kawan die coz i swim at her friend condo.my parents awal2 already not at home working.so my lips is not moving at all from morning-evening.sumtimes until dinner time.except when i hav a call.haha.boring.

-to show you all how critical was the situation is when ive done all the housework such as washing dishes, clothes, 3 toilets, lipat baju, mopping, vacuming, get rid all the dust and parasites that going inside out from the house.i even do car washing.sampai dah tak tau nak buat ape dah.before this ur life is full with people around you.so nak adjust dalam enviroment baru takes time.kindda lost skit.

-the cruel part being inside anak tunggal life with busy parents and ur alone at home with no social activities coz all ur friends left you is ur easily get hurt.ur easily get disappointed.yesterday i was hurt .yesterday also i felt disappointed.yesterday punye yesterday pon i get disappointed.yesterday punye yesterday punye yesterday pon i kene stab in my heart sbb hurt and disappointed.sakitlah..rosak plak hati aku nanti.same thing goes to today.sbb ape? coz im lonely.really bad kind of lonely.letih ok.heyh...


-dah.nak gi pavilion.i need my bf beside me.he can comfort me.i want to be in his shoulder.now i know why we need bf instead of siblings.haha.

papai~


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